To My Cyber Bully

Hello everyone. I know. I’m in a complete utter shitty situation right now and this is not like me at all. Just a day after the recent event I was attacked online by someone I do not know, none of my friends knew, nothing at all. And for no absolute reason as well. I was already down with everything that had happened at the event that this totally caught me off guard. But now I am ready to respond back. Being the kind person I was taught to be, I will be nice to keep your identify anonymous for your own good sake.

Dear cyber bully, on January 22, at around 8:00 PM you decided it would be ok to crop out a photo of me from the Houseki Squad group photo and use it to your advantages. And I admit, it was a photo that wasn’t a good angle of me and it makes more sense for you to use it. At first I was already in a bad mood and barely felt anything from my shitty mood, but this caught me off guard to the point I could not stop crying. Seeing the nasty comments, the amount of people on your side, the never ending pain and negativity of your actions affected me to the point I have to admit that “You won.”

But realizing that others were affected and that there were actually so much more people who were pointing out your wrong doings made me realize that I wasn’t alone. Sure I’ve said this many times that negativity in the cosplay community existed and I’d be ready for it, but sometimes it hits you when you least expect it. Many say that ignoring and blocking would do the job, but sometimes these kind of situations don’t always leave on their own. I could have left you as you were but in the mood I was in I couldn’t.

Day by day I felt myself getting weaker, mentally and physically. As I watched as everyone lashed at you and called you a cyber bully, you laugh as nothing affects you because honestly people like you don’t feel pain but you are fed by the pain of others. Some weird kink you got there oof. And while I didn’t feel like myself, my friends and those close to me made me feel better. I almost lost myself at one point but they helped me.

That’s the difference between me and you. I have people who care about me and will always have my back. What if one day you really do something wrong, who will have your back then? Thank you for deleting the photo upon response and for your apology post regardless whether sincere or not. And I thank everyone who had helped me get through this difficult time such as my close friend in school, my Psychology teacher, and lastly my parents whom I regret telling them about the situation last because I feared that this issue would eventually get involved with the authorities.

I remember asking myself: “What did I do to deserve such treatment?” But now, for once I am glad to have been chosen instead of the others. They are my friends and if you think of picking on them then you are going to get through me first. Sounds cliche but I would take a bullet for anyone considering the person I am. 2018 may have had a rocky start but I will only use these experiences to continue learning more and more in life. Sometimes the worst situations lead you to realize better things, and for that my response ends here.