Maruya #21

I wanted to remind you all and myself too that not all days will be good or bad. Today I tried my best to hide it but honestly I was feeling shitty the entire day and pissed off and my mood was entirely not myself at all. I’ll probably blame that time of the month for blessing me this morning but let’s not jump to that.

Last night me and Saige were working on our wigs for our Houseki no Kuni cosplay as Zircon and Cairngorm cuz our Dia and Bort wigs didn’t make it in time. We sat and decorated our wigs and I’ll give special big thanks to her for helping me finish off my wig as I passed out like a weak bean who had no energy at all...We went to the con reminding each other that we were going to own it today but when we reached I think my hopes went down to zero cuz it seemed like not many people knew who we were cosplaying as. Sometimes I felt jealous of that one Dia cosplayer who was getting all the camera men and people’s attention I felt that all of our hard work meant nothing.

Until, we met these group of Houseki no Kuni cosers who invited us for an almost full group shoot. That really brightened my shitty mood and “I’m just not good enough” thoughts instantly. After con they invited me to dinner and before I even knew it I made a whole group of new friends. Life is strange isn’t it? Sometimes I think what did I ever do to deserve to know these people or why did we even cross paths. Whatever the reason, I am really grateful for it will continue sharing my life with these amazing people. I promise you that the next Maruya will be better than this.